Saturday, May 30, 2009

I lay these eggshells to remember to be careful

I always think I've changed until I realize: No, I am the exact same person. I still let people push me around if they want to because I'm...well, not afraid, but I just fucking hate conflict with people I care about. And I still am a jealous person. I still get worried about things that shouldn't worry me. I still compulsively eat, sleep at the wrong times, etc. This isn't me whining (not that anyone's reading this nor, even if they are, do I care about people judging); meh, it's more a resolution to attempt to change...again. Hopefully.

Anyways, I bought these online (UO sale + coupon code = success):

Rainbow Strip Sunglasses $4.99 (was $18)


BDG Knit Maxi Skirt - $4.99 (was $42)



Shadow Readers - $4.99 (was $18)
These are to replace the ones I lost at Undie Run.


Microfloral Printed Patch Shams - $4.99 (was $30)

I was extremely sick today. I was super femininely ill, if you catch my drift, to the point where I had a fever and couldn't walk. And I was rather emotionally miserable, as well, but I watched movies and wrote and perhaps that helped. Who knows? I watched Willy Wonka (1971 one) and it made me feel tons better for a while.

This is how I felt today.

2 comments:

  1. that's pretty much how i've felt all day, too. cept less attractive:

    http://i50.photobucket.com/albums/f318/ohthreesome/Photo354.jpg

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  2. I am so sorry; it is such a terrible feeling and I will hopefully be there to hold you tomorrow. :)
    Love you, Maryam.
    <3

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